SLIPPED AWAY

Seriously, I'm clueless why he left me, like what's the reason why he came up to that decision and it is leaving me? I remember it clearly, the moment he can't no longer looked me in the eyes, was the night he chose to live his life without me. Of course, I was in pain that time. It was so hard to accept that he doesn't want me anymore in his life and I hate him for that. He leave me without any hesitation. 

I swear, I know to myself that I did everything just to make things in line. I decided to do that because I was thinking that, if I do all things that will make him happy, he'll stay, and he will realize that I am the right girl for him. However, everything has it's own ending. He ended up our relationship without any final reason, he said that he can't, he doesn't want to stay any longer with me. It was so painful, painful and painful. And I'm thinking like, after all we've been through, with that petty argument, we separated. Maybe Mama was right, she once told me that love pushes you to do things that you don't usually do. Weather how good it is or how bad it is, we still manage to do such things.


Thanks to that unforgettable pain, because after all the pain that I've been gone  through, one thing I realized, that when love rises in my heart again, and I will be able to love again, I will never give my all to him; that i should not love him more that I love myself, that i should respect myself more than anybody else, that love is all about give and take. I have learned one most important thing that me with my bravest self now, and that is, don't pursue things not because it's important, pursue things because that's what you prioritize.